I am choosing myself, first and foremost. I am choosing to forgive myself, to treat myself and to let myself learn how to enjoy life again.
This got a little easier this week after my two big doctors appointments. First, the rheumatologist doesn't see anything that indicates an autoimmune condition. Second, my bone marrow biopsy came back normal!!! I am stoked about the news but also still a bit miffed at the lack of diagnosis. I had blood drawn at the biopsy appointment and my blood cell counts are still low. The next step is probably a follow up with my primary doc and a second opinion from another hematologist.
In keeping with my new motto to choose myself, I chose to put off those phone calls until next week. I need a break.
The best part of the experience for me was this:
I was a biology geek in high school (would've chosen this as a career if I could go back in time) and I think it's so freaking cool to see my chromosomes!